Depression

AH, it's great to know that I've overcame it once, and that I can again!

Depression hates change, so change is what I will do. A brief walk every morning, discuss with Dani the next day's tasks at night.

I can't let it win, and I won't. It's okay to have a problem, don't be so hard on yourself.

Realizations

I am in control of my life, my mood.

Lately, because of anxiety towards everything (wedding, school, job soon) I can't concentrate. It's that depressionism mood that starts in the morning and lifts much later; if you can't get rid of it, WORK THROUGH IT.

However, I must overcome this, and I can. It's all about saying "yes, you can" over and over till it sticks.

Damnit, everyone else believes in you, it's about damn time you believe in yourself!

So much is good in your life.. so what if you are in a little debt, you'll get a good job and start paying it off! :)
You have Dani, great friends and family, colleaugues; just because there's a bit of turmoil right now doesn't mean it won't lift!

Gotta be optimistic.

On Dieting

A few months back Dani "enrolled" in the Dr. Bernstein Diet. I had been following it with her, but eating a bit more since I didn't get as much supplements (just taking a multivitamin.)

Well.. I somehow cut those cravings for carbs, don't use any more oils, etc, etc.

I lost ~40-50 lbs in 3 months. Dani lost more.

After going to the school doctor (what can I say.. I don't much care for my family doctor), she pointed out that losing that much weight fucks up your body chemistry and puts a lot of stress (even if you don't realize it) on your body.

This explains my sensitive mental state in the past few weeks. Lesson learned ;)