Celexa working wonders so far, living at home, the stress..

Finally decided to take advice of Dr. Johnson, Ms. Kelly (Therapist), doctor at clinic, in that "the feelings of not just right, not myself" and low mood levels can be aided by antidepressants 2 weeks ago.

After only a few days, it was like wow, I can enjoy life again. The low mood was gone.

Still can't seem to get anywhere in school, but at least one problem is solved. ;)

It came back a bit today though, after a few weeks of being on the drug. It's gone now by the mid afternoon. I think it's because me and Dani are drifting apart (even after that Tom Petty concert the other night). We went to bed upset with each other last night. She really, really, really wants to live on her own (especially after being at Jess' the other night), and my school plans have set that back too far. She can't really help how she feels.

I think it would be great for us to live on our own; however, I kind of feel that we should take that money instead and save up for a house. She says she doesn't want to lose her financial freedom (saving money for house) for something that feels years and years away.

And I guess she's right. I really want both her and me to be happy, but I just can't see a permanent solution to that at the moment. She wants to be happy now, not later. I can't blame her for that.

The apartment does present a few problems:
- Buddy and barking
- Not a safe area for cats to roam around in (Tecumseh Rd)
- Buddy: no backyard to play in. Are dogs even allowed in this appartment (I imagine Dani would have checked that.)

It wouldn't be as bad financially if me and Dani weren't in debt; but debt is something most people have to live with I guess.

I read an interesting bit on what the cause of depression could possibly be (or atleast one), seems very fitting for me:

"Some experts theorize that low mood is an adaptive response to situations in which expectations fail to match achievements (such as with an unrequited love affair, career failure, or a challenge of authority). In its healthy state, the pain this response causes provides both an incentive to disengage and a passive, withdrawn state that allows a period of thought before changing direction. Depression as a disorder (characterized by pervasive pessimism, low self-esteem and total lack of initiative) may develop if there are constant unachievable objects or goals and there are no positive relationships to help a person change direction. (Such cases could certainly occur in highly competitive societies that lack strong social support and where the media holds up unattainable images as desirable.) Such a theory does not, however, rule out biologic or other factors that can contribute to depressive disorders."