I think my depression has lifted, w00!

The doctor the other week said my depression would lift by itself.

My grandpa said it's OK to be depressed, and don't feel bad about it.

I feel great today. I feel.. more like I did before I was depressed (which started around March, though I had been ignoring it and it had been creeping up for a while). I can't really explain exactly how I was feeling: it was general blah. Right now the general "blah" isn't there anymore -- it's been a while since it's been gone during the day (school.)


I worried about whether I've chosen the right field, whether I'd be happy doing it, etc.

When I was depressed, I couldn't get anything done. I couldn't concentrate, be motivated, dedicated to anything for any significant amount of time. I felt like I wasn't good at anything anymore, unsure of my future (the future is always unsure, duh), worried about everything, had constant negative thoughts running through my head. I wasn't even that interested in ANYTHING anymore. When I went to school, I would do anything to avoid work: browse the web, take a walk around campus, plan other stuff, think about what I might do that night, etc, etc.

Another thing: I didn't feel "right" about myself. Hard to explain. I wasn't happy with myself at all.

For a few weeks the constant negative thoughts were almost too much for me, it felt like I was going insane.

They seem to be gone. Going to keep my fingers crossed. :)