Trying to write down how I'm feeling today:

I'm having thoughts of suicide, in that life isn't worth living. Even being outside in the sun isn't helping much.

I feel disconnected with myself... I feel I don't know who I am, or what I'm good at anymore.

I'm having regret for not saving money, etc, throughout school. I had a blast, and didn't have to worry about money, and bought and did many good things. I shouldn't feel like that.

I hate feeling this way. I gotta get over it, for the sake of my school work and my entire life.

I do have a lot to live for.. Dani loves me, I love spending time with her, I have a supportive family, great friends, but I still fucking feel like this. Ack!

I just feel so.. confused.

Songtau told me today that "I'm going through another puberty". HAH!

I went to the clinic the other day to get a second opinion, and the doc thought I had a mild-medium depression. He suggested I try to vary up things in my life (Get up earlier, etc) change routines.

My doctor Wahby told me "it's all in my head", and that it will take work to reorganize my thoughts.

Well, it seems to me the less I get accomplished, the more depressing everything feels, and the worse it gets. I don't want to spiral down any longer.